  is the reality check that was today. Ok that is misleading, am very much aware of goings-on around but today was unexpected, and of the sort you're wary of. So the news of teh day is, I will have no place to stay in like 2 months. Everyone going back home in August. Will also have no job in less than a month's time. So why am I so detached from my life, still? well, actually you're not, cuz you're too busy Living your life. Claremont has me hanging by a thread about to snap.
the edge is where I am. There's just so much I can humanly do. Thus went the latter part of the day. good thing I got work done earlier, before the news was dropped. trainride back home was uneventful except for hep bangladeshi woman talking in bangladeshi bangla and indian man on cellphone rambling on in very bad english. oh and same woman on train earlier was standing next to me. Met Jenny, her concern touches me. Good talking outside Cupping Room Village, another one crossed off the list. She made me laugh with her very recent discovery of her relatives in the US. I was talking too much. I love dogs, especially the small, brown one smaller and cuter than a fox. have to find out what breed it is. Got thoroughly disracted at Jembro, though it was worth the splurge.
Me highly-strung was the reason. Should never let people sway me into making decisions, even her. Have sworn never to take the F train back from West 4th again. Twice bitten. Hopefully Chicago will afford more distractions for the next 6 days. Still havent read stuff for the workshops, hate that Im neglecting those. remember to carry Leon Trotsky's essays book. Hope to get some reading done during flight. Sanity still sought, so this should be a well-earned time-out. Soundtrack for today: West End Girls via Pet Shop Boys. Funny. And am numb waist down to toe for the last few days. This freaking weather... Have so much to write, but am so pressed for time. Will go hunt for bag to take now. 
