  it just happened.i found myself in love with the person i barely knew.could it be possible? maybe in my case.it develops into something and as days goes by, it went deeper and deeper.before it was just my mind speaking...now, its my heart and i can feel it.the problem is...i'm afraid. i don't even know if he likes me.is it okay to feel afraid? because i am...sometimes afraid of taking a chance...afraid of losing...even afraid of winning sometimes.kung kelan ko nararamdaman na gusto ko na sya..saka naman ako mag-de-decide to let go of him.should i really have to?
a case of mind over heart? siguro.i'm scared to love too much...scared to hold on tight.scared of letting go when in fact i need him and want him.-sigh- by the way, let me share this piece i read in my mail.quite appropriate sa nararamdaman ko at nararanasan sa ngayon.read on. ---------------------------- The Art of Letting Go ---------------------------- Why do we have to part ways while the love is there? While the friendship is still bonded? Why do we have to cry when someone bid goodbye? Why do beginning has an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose in end? There are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems left undone and promises left unfulfilled! In a relationship or even in friendship one of the hardest things to do is letting go and saying goodbye. It is hard as breaking a crystal, because you'll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again.
More often than not they who go feel not the pain of parting, it is they who stay behind that suffers because they are left with memories of love and friendship...that never was meant to be and never was... At the beginning and at the end of any relationship we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone, unfair as it may seems, but that’s the way how it goes… that’s the drama, the bitter, the sweet and risk of a relationship. After all nothing is constant but change, everything will come to its end, without even knowing when, without knowing how, without knowing why and we have to forget not because we want to but because we must.
In letting go sorrow comes not as a single spy but in a battalion, it seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song you hear, every turn of your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eyes and every breath you take always remind you of him/her. It’s like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night...funny how the whole world becomes populated when only one person is missing. Just imagine there are four billion people on earth yet you feel lonely and empty without the other...
I don’t know if it is worth calling an art, but letting go entails special skills, sparkle with a considerable time and space. Time heals all wounds but it takes a little push on our part. Acceptance plays a vital role. Not all wishes come true. Not all love story ends with "And they live happily ever after". Sometimes we have to part ways because of circumstances beyond our control, we have to suffer if it would mean happiness for another, and we have to cry to temporarily let go of the pain. Every beginning has an end like every dawn has its dark, its something we can't control, and something we have to live up... Its over he/she is gone, but life has to go on!!
Goodbye doesn't mean forever, there will always be a time where questions will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony and love will be expressed in solitude, and promises will be fulfilled somewhere, somehow and someday... To you, you know who you are...thank you for being you and for helping me to understand some of the joys and sorrows to be found in my life. 
