  well here we are in the cafe d'internet once more as i try to waste the time until sleep. nbsp;  everyone bar the fighters have gone to watch maki fight tonight. nbsp;  wish i could be there to support him but its an early start tomorrow and we got told to chill out. nbsp;
 it is very boring waiting for a fight. nbsp;  tempting to lapse into utter inactivity. nbsp;  been a zombie today. nbsp;
 after the fight,  the time just before it becomes completely inconsequential. nbsp;  all this worrying and playing with what ifs is so important now. nbsp;  if i think about every possible outcome then i have more chance of winning.
nbsp;  if i do not consider one variation,  the surprise might be too much resulting in a loss. nbsp;  what a load of nonsense. nbsp;
 i must emphasise the fact that the fighting is absolutely worth all of this. nbsp; nbsp;  at this juncture let me also inform you that i shall be on isaan ( NE)  regional TV tomorrow.
nbsp;  fortunately my white skin and big rounded eyes have outweighed the fact that i am a bit rubbish at muay thia& nbsp; and made it fitting for me to take the airtime. nbsp;  phi is fighting on the same bill but he will not be getting on the box.
nbsp;  he has only had 110 fights and 83 wins. nbsp;  he has only fought at lumpini for a title. nbsp;  he is a thai though and,
 as such,  lacking in my exotic appeal. nbsp;  i am exotic. nbsp;  me.
nbsp;  exotic. nbsp;  like a palm tree.  can't wait to write in this blog on friday and let you know how it went. nbsp;
 i shall be trying my best to knock my opponent out. nbsp;  this is the first time i have been able to use elbows in a fight and i intend to capitalise on this. nbsp;  the 13 year old boy next to me has just pulled up a picture of a vagina with eyes and a nose drawn on it. nbsp;
 i have signalled my approval.
