  It's raining.  strange,  but reminds me of my first love,  the one that still refuses to let go and leave my heart.  and I loved him and hated him and .  loved him again,
 still do yesterday John came to the library with some girl,  he's showing off and he's making it so obvious,  doesn't he realize how foolish he looks,  how desparate he's making himself be,  and I'm sure that he is making himself be like that,  why can't he be a man and respect the choice that I made,
 if he cared he would honestly,  it's like 5th grade,  bringing another girl to the place where I work at [ and he hasn't ever done it before]  after I told him I'm over him,  does he really think that I'm not smart enough to see what's going on,
 I've been there before and it's just sad,  I'm losing all respect I ever had for him,  and respect does mean a lot to me last day of school,  I feel so relieved,  got my grades,  84.
93 average [ awesome]  = P,  77 for chem regents,  I'll live,
 I was afraid I failed,  was gonna hang out with Sasha after work,  but it rained tomorrow no work!  lol feel like I should celebrate my first free Saturday in a loooong time,  if the weather is good,  will go to the beach with Sasha and maybe Mariyna,
 but she has to pack so I dunno if she'll go,  Imma miss her,  even though she'll be back on July 15th,  that's a long time still There was sooooo much food in the library today,  but it was really tasty,  and I forgot to take the boxes again,
 I should be packing my stuff too,  so sick of it though,  I didn't even know I had so much stuff I don't need,  and I have to sort it all out,  and it's just taking so much energy Haben Sie ein gutes Wochenende 
