  I still think about anger some Lord. I mean I should have anger shouldn’t I? I mean after all the crap that has happened some anger ought to be around, right?
And yet I don’t know how to get in touch with it. I know I’ve asked you for help Lord _ I have surrounded it to you – I just worry about what Kevin will say. Do I have it so buried Lord I can’t unlock it? I think I do. But it is not up to me to unlock it – is it Lord?
I have given that to you. I just wish I knew if you were going to do anything about it Lord. Any idea? I know you are there Lord. I know it. Just sometimes I can’t feel you. I know that happens Lord. But it is scary. Real scary. I feel so lost and so alone. And I don’t like that feeling anymore Lord. Can you at least say Hi? Maybe you are and I don’t sense it. I just don’t know. Amen 
