  I am working on learning how to handle my fear. Fear tends to grip my heart in a vise and keep my mind from functioning on any kind of rational level. Fear has been, it seems like, how I have lived my whole life. However, now that I have allowed God in control of my life, I no longer have to live in or with fear. My God is a God of love, not of fear, and He will help me conquer my fear if I just allow Him too. When I start to feel fear, I have to be willing to look inside myself and discover what the driving force behind the fear is.
Yes I know it will be scary. Yes I know it will be hard. However I also know I do not have to face my fear alone. God will be with me, holding my hand, carrying me if necessary and loving me every step of the way. When I look at the fear, I need to remember all the above and calm myself down enough to find out what is feeding the fear. It could be a fear of abandonment, a fear that has happened over and over again in my life and what I am always dreading when someone is in my life.
God can conquer that fear, He will never abandon me. It could be a fear of rejection, one I have also faced most of my life and one that can destroy my life in a split second. God can conquer this fear, He will never reject me. It could be a fear of failure, the one fear that has stopped me from living life to it’s fullest cause I don’t want to fail, so I don’t risk at all. God can conquer this fear, He made me and He does not make failures. It could be the fear of being unloveable, which since for so long I could not even love myself, how could I expect someone else to love me?
God conquered this fear, He loved me enough to allow His Son to die for me. I know when God looks at me all He sees is love. I need to look at the fear and know in my heart it is not true, for my God tells me it is not true. God does not want me to fear anything. So when I discover fears starting to overcome me again, I need to remember to calm down, find the root, and then with God’s help, cut it out. God will help me fight both the emotions of fear and the beliefs that lead me to fear.
He will show me I need not fear, not now, not tomorrow, not ever. With His love and help I know I can conquer all my fears. Not in a day, not in a week I am sure, but over time I know I will. I believe in Him and He is not of fear. This is one of the million reasons I love my God - He governs not by fear but by love. Vlh 7/26 
