  Hello. I'm back, and for the last two entries, I am truly sorry. That happens sometimes. I told you I'd tell you about camp when I was feeling more story-teller-ish, and I'm not. But I shall tell you, because if I hold it off any longer you ain't gonna know... lol. Okay, first day. Going up to Calumet, I was in a good mood because it was like going away from everything that was bothering me and driving myself away from all of my problems. We got lost inside the camp, going to the wrong place at first, but afterwards we found where we were supposed to go and all was, once again... actually together.
When we were going up to the cabins, that's where I got my first glimpse of Steve since Maine. Holy shit he's fucking hott... lol. Now, he was with Elijah and Nate, and we waved, and they waved back and then kinda... ran... cuz they're shy and stupid. Heh... it was quite funny, cuz I never think of guys of being afraid... and Carol (Carol is one of our confermation class leaders, along with Pastor Merkel) starts talking... "Oh, ignore them... they're shy and afraid..." and I was like... wow... they really are... lol. I find that quite strange. Later we got reaquainted with them, and with some other people from Maine. We also met Elise. There's two Elises. Elise from Maine, and Elise from Connecticut. They're both cool and they are now both friends. Day 2. Got closer with everyone, and got used to being away. This day seemed like the longest... ever.
We went on the pontoon boat ride, (I know I spelled that wrong), and I was in heaven for 45 minutes because I sat across from Steve the entire time and oooomggggg he looked sooo fucking hottt.... lol. What? HE IS! Hehe. ((Pssst I still like Jay more, lol)) Everything started coming together today and I got to be so happy.
The songs and services and skits they put on were all annoying as Hell, but it didn't matter because everything was actually okay. Elise(Maine), I realized, was good friends with Steve and getting closer to him- which hurt at first but I brushed it off because know what? I love someone... Jay. Crushes don't matter. Steve is just really fucking hott, and at this point I barely knew him so I couldn't even tell if I really liked him yet. So it didn't matter... AND I'M NOT EVEN BEING SARCASTIC! :O!
Heh.
Day 3. Day of the shirts. Ya know how if a guy is really really hott he looks even better if he's in a really dressy shirt?
Both Steve and Elijah were in dressy shirts. And Laurel and I were like... "THE HEAVENLY VOICES ON HIIIIGHH!!! " lmao... Anyway, coincidentally, today I also ended up being around Steve a lot more, THANKS TO LAUREL, and I was nervous and about to fucking faint. No, not a good thing... heh. I was up playing basketball, practicing, with Laurel. And Steve comes and starts to practice... AND LAUREL LEFT ME. And in a way I wanted to run up and hug her, and in a way I wanted to fucking strangle the life out of her. Well, me and Steve were practicing for the better part of an hour, and I didn't say a word. Hah, I'm stupid. Then, he left. And in about a half an hour Pastor Merkel wondered where the Hell I was and Laurel came to get me.
And again, I was made nervous by Laurel.. at lunch. Bethesda/Grace churches had two or three tables, but there was only one with two seats left when me and Laurel came in a little late. They were on one side of Steve. One was next to him and one was the next one over. Laurel took the next one over.
Once again, I wanted to hug her and shoot her at the same time. But throughout the whole time, it felt like he was just as nervous as I was... and, you see, these chairs were really close, and his leg kept touching mine... and one of those times he left it there... *blushes all bright* lol... that was a good time. And throughout the rest of that day, I was able to talk to him so much and I did... and I got to know him... and grew to like him... a lot. But I realized something, that sucks. A lot. I can be somewhere else and forget about my worries at home, and then somewhere in the middle I always think about them. I still love Jay, and I can't like Steve and just completely forget about Jay. Though, I do want to forget about it because he would never like me back and all that happy shit. And at that point, yes, I had a crush on Steve. But... I love Jay and therefore that little crush stayed just a little crush. And he's really fucking hott.
Hehe.
:-D. And here was the throwing of the shotput-rocky-thing that gets it's own paragraph cuz it was all like "Whoa" lol.
See, Steve coaches track. ((Ooooomg what I wouldn't give to see that one day))... And he found a rock about the size of a shotput, because Jerry (another advisor dude) wanted to see how far he could throw one. He threw it fucking thirty feet... and I was invited to watch :-D. And Elise wasn't. Hehehehe :-D. Lmao... Day 4. This is the depressing day because we left... so I shall not say any more about it. Well, that was camp. And now I am done. Cuz this is getting long... lol. Byeee...... --Lizz ((It's been a long dark lonely hall, Between the cracks I can read the scrawl.. It's written down in a crooked rhyme... That sold me out before my time...)) 
