  I am so, so tired, i stayed up really late talking to Genny last night. I sometimes forget about how good she can be to talk to. She's very down to earth and is great at telling me the truth about stuff, which in a way is annoying because it means i can't live in my little fantasy world of everything being how i want it to be but it's good because she makes me think about what everything is really like.
It was a really good talk though, i was feeling a bit down about stuff and a little confused as well but she made me laugh so much by talking about how we are 'upper class mean princesses' and how we live in our 'castle' looking over all the scummy people in burghfield and how if we ever started smoking we'd do it with style with long cigarette holders like Cruella De Vil has. That proberbly makes no sense but it did in our conversation, the great thing is we feel almost exactly the same about stuff and it makes us laugh to talk about it. Daniel and Luke are coming over tomorrow (hopefully) which i'm really, really pleased about because they don't often make the effort to get over to burghfield ("but Alice, we have to catch a bus!
that's just too much"). So i'm feeling more positive about them again. I keep going up and down about how i feel towards my 'old' friends (the ones i've had since year 7) I think i'm outgrowing them. I don't always want to hang out with people who's idea of fun is to nick dog poo fine signs, roll cigarettes and talk about electric guitars. They seem to be typical boring teenagers and I don't want to be like that. Last summer that was all i wanted, to be like them but I don't think i ever could be, i'm too different. Yesterday when i was at Daniel's, Emma, Clare and Sam were always together and i was with Daniel.
Emma, Clare and Sam all suit each other so well and i don't feel part of them. I don't care because I don't want to be like them but it is odd that Emma is my best friend but i don't seem to have much in common with her anymore, we seem part of different things. This all keeps confuddling me but i know that when i leave school i'm going to have a completly different, more interesting life and school will seem insignificant and petty compared to other stuff.
I think i realise this while Emma and Daniel don't. I have to go and feed the pets now, our neighbours are away and they have 2 fat rats (gizmo 1 and 2), some fish, a cat (dead cat) and 4 guinea pigs (lesliey 1, 2, 3 and 4) !!!! that's a lot of pets! &nbsp; 
