  Well, it's been a while since my last entry. I have had a lot happen regarding my pregnancy, at least from the emotional aspect of it. I went for my ultrasound last week and all they saw was a gestational sac. They said it might be too soon to see so they sent me home with two lab slips, one for that day and one to be repeated two days after. So I left there feeling doomed. I thought this pregnancy was over before it really even started. My hcg level on Wednesday was over 3000 which I am told is really good. Then on Friday it had only risen to over 4000.
Dr. Howitt said that it could be something or nothing. I never had the bloodwork with my last pregnancy but the same thing happened. I went in and they said it was too early to tell anything and sent me home. So, my next ultrasound is for tomorrow. She said we should be able to see the baby by then for sure. I am hoping and praying everything is fine. My biggest fear is that they will just see the empty sac again. I pray with all my might that things are okay.
Mike, Nan and Michelle are the only ones who know the truth right now and how scared I am. I just didn't want the whole world knowing that I could be having another miscarriage. However all three of them seem optimistic that things will be ok. I have all the pregnancy symptoms...fatigue, breast tenderness, backaches, headaches....yet by now with both Dakota and Sierra I was really sick.
I have not felt anything like that really. Maybe an occasional bout of nausea, but definitely no vomiting. That scares me to no end, however makes me hope that it stays that way should I continue on this emotional rollercoaster. I just can't wait until tomorrow at this time. I will at least no something, good or bad. All I know is that this waiting and the uncertainty of not knowing is killing me. Ugh!!! Ugh!!! Ugh!! ! 
