  It's been a week since I've been working here. Though I've been complaining in the past few days, I realised that I've really been blessed when I made it a point to pray for better attitude towards my work & everything. Though I have to lunch alone, I get to spend the time alone with God at the penthouse (which Wendy & Cindee thought it's really a nice place) & I've taken time to really count my blessings ever since I got this job.
My colleagues are pretty nice to me; workload's not as bad as I thought - probably because I've given myself unnecessary pressure; I get to read free mags which saves me alot of money; having the chance to meet up with my mum for dinner after work is also something I should be thankful for. I felt bad about being stressed out at work that I vent my frustrations on her at times but praise God for helping me change...I hardly dread waking up for work these days too. Hallelujah! Yesterday we had Zone Meeting with Pastor Derek in church, and time was getting late...I wasn't really enjoying the CG & my attitude got the worst of me.
I don't know why I got really distracted yesterday, alot of things were running in my mind. When Pastor Derek was busy praying & laying hands on certain groups of people, I felt so bitter & couldn't wait to go home since I didn't want to spend a bomb on the cab fare later (already broke so I don't know how I'm even gonna get home if it's past 12am)...Pastor Derek was really anointed & the glory of God was really strong on him...he went around praying & trying to fill us up with the Holy Spirit. Wendy and Serene even went 'down' from the power though I felt nothing...maybe it's really my rebellious attitude & bitterness that kept my heart hardened. I was quite nervous when Pastor Derek turned to me, even worse when he wanted to pray for me, but I just gave my all to God, hoping that He can change my attitude.
I was really waiting in anticipation, wondering what God would say to me...I couldn't really remember what Pastor Derek said except that he could sense that I have a lot of stuff on my mind - family, relationships & God wants me to let them go...that He's never forgotten about me...& I was prayed to be healed, probably emotionally or physically...the presence was really strong & I felt kinda groggy but it's awesome that when I got up, my burden was really gone. I felt alert, with a new sense of joy & everything was lifted off me. Matthew 11:30 - "For my yoke fits perfectly, & the burden I give you is light.
" I'm really thankful to Pastor Derek since it's not often that we can get prayed & laid hands on. Felicia, Cindee & Wendy said I'm really blessed...Wendy was prayed for as well & I guess last night's meeting really stirred us up...can't wait for every chance to get to church or CG. Sometimes I feel that the change in me, about how I view God and everything has changed drastically but I love it & I know it's for the better.
Wal said I've became a hard-core Christian & actually I'm proud of it! Lolz...I'm really proud to be a Christian, a member of City Harvest Church & having an intimate relationship with God who's really, really wonderful & indescribable at times. I know for sure is that I'll never get enough of God...I pray that all Christians will press on for that & continue to be on fire to do His works on earth till Jesus returns again! 
