  I think I have very poor communication skills. I cannot ever manage to explain how I feel and I can't sort things out reasonably. I am feeling quite upset right now because this sort of thing happens way to often. I'm thinking I don't like this whole "eh, catch you tomorrow" thing relationship wise. Doing something tonight didn't even seem like an option. Is this a good thing? I know the other end is terrible too, being together too much is a bad thing too.
It's just not a good thing to be totally wrapped up in one person. But I feel such a gap between us and it definitely has been discussed so I feel terrible for still feeling this way. It's probably my fault, I should have brought up that I felt this way but I'm tired of doing that. I start my morning so early and I have all this energy to fit so much into a day but things always seem anti-climatic. Each day starts out with so many possiblites, I drive home from my class and the sun's out and I think, today will be an amazing day but then nothing unique happens. Wow I feel so terrible for thinking this way but I just always feel so bad when we get off the phone or he leaves and I'm not sure why. Tonight I stayed in and watched Bridget Jones' Diary and folded clothes from the huge diaster area I've created upstairs.
It was a depressing end to a decent day. Maybe the case here is that one person, because he is so close to me, is taking the blame for some sort of void I feel, I don't know. I will have to think about what makes me feel this way. 
