  Well since I didnt' update my day-to-day event here's a recap... Friday, spent the whole day to myself. Felt really good just to be able to rejuvenate and to have that time all to myself! Then my boyfriend Minh came over to pick me up. It's been a while since we had our "Date Night. " I took the time to look all good for him. I wore my red top with jeans and I managed to put my hair up. I think he liked it... He said I looked pretty ;) He took me out to Tony Romas for supper. We had a nice dinner together. Then we went to Silver City to see "Shrek 2" really funny movie. Then it started raining really hard so we drove around the city in the rain.
I always love the rain. We stopped by at the Keg and ended the night there.... Saturday, went to work and then came home to drive my mom to Superstore. A few hours later I came to pick her up and dropped off my dad's glasses for him at Victoria Hospital where he was working. Then I was supposed to go to a bridal shower @ 6:00 but I decided not to go. Then took off to Osborne to meet up with Rowena and Edralyn for supper at the Spicy Noodle House. I wanted to set Rowena up with one of Minh's friends really badly. However, at first sight of Rowena I knew it's not going to work out.
I wasn't getting any vibes from her that it will work out. She seemed somewhat interested but she doesn't want to be obvious about it, I decided to go along with it. Then we decided to go to Corydon for ice-cream, but somehow we ended up going to my house instead. We were there for a good hour and a half. The anticipation to hear from Minh was building up every minute. I guess it's because I wanted to go but I just don't know when. Subconciously I think a part of me was a little disappointed at my boyfriend because this whole bbq was planned out a month ago and because of the changed of plans, I didn't like the idea that I dragged two other people along with it. But deep down I know it's not his fault, but when he called me that night, telling me he wasn't sure when he'll be off, didn't quite help me in the situation.
I guess in my point of view I have to be understanding, which is okay. The car ride going to his friend's house was quite different. We both know there's a feeling of awkwardness. I just blocked all that off and focused on the purpose of introducing Rowena and Edralyn to Minh's friends. But throughout the night, I wasn't quite impressed with the way Rowena presented herself. I know that my boyfriend's friends deserves someone better. Every woman is sweet on their own sense, but if you don't see that sweet side to her within the first second, it will take awhile to find that... I think just sitting apart from Minh that night at the party felt really different for the two of us. After the party I was standing infront of my car, but since everything was already awkward between Minh and I, the parting was even more awkward than expected.
I guess just not being able to be close to him that night, put a wedged between us. I felt like I was getting the cold shoulders from him, and the moment he tried to give me a kiss goodnight, I wasn't feeling the closeness there, so I pulled away. I guess there are other thoughts going through my mind. Thinking that I know how important it is for him to work and everything, but I guess I dont' know if situations like that would happen again.
Say we planned something ahead of time in the future and he tries booking it off early, but for some reason he can't get that off, I guess I have always have to understand that he has to work. I think that's where a huge part of me don't know how to deal with that situation. Obviously I didn't take it very well. I didn't even understand why I kept pulling away from him and I was becoming distant from him, mainly because I was preparing myself so that if that does happen again, I would know how to deal with it. The way I dealt with it, is by logging on the net to try to find him a new job. But I think to myself, why do that, if the person themselves is happy with their job why change that? I know now that if that ever happens again, I have to be more supportive of him. In a way I'm glad that the bbq didn't happen at his house.
Coz here I am trying to stress myself over to please others, Rowena in this particular situation, when I should have been pleasing my man first. I didn't do that. I didn't even asked him, if he ate, or how his day was, but rather, I pressured him to get off work early so we could go to the bbq. I now realized what I did wrong. That night I know how much I was hurting Minh by not opening up to him.
Instead I tried putting things off by walking around the block with him. After that night, our parting was just really different. One thing is for sure, we were both doubting ourselves if we should even be together... I woke up today and I was getting ready to go to church. Other things started coming to mind. Minh had asked me to go to "Hoop It Up" with him to see his friends play. I already told him the night before to go without me. I guess a part of me knows that I have responsibilities and that I have to be at church because of the commitments that I have to make. Yet a part of me felt that if I go, my heart and my mind wouldn't be into it. One thing for sure I learned from church, is to never go there knowing that your heart is not fully there.
Fix things up first with an open mind and an open heart then come back to church when you're ready to do that. I went to Minh's house and we went for a walk to the park to talk. He poured his heart to me and I myself don't even know what's going on with me. I couldn't explain it until I started typing these words out. One thing for sure I learned, is to put aside my pride and to return back to my man.
Coz I sure know that I miss him as much as he has missed me. He tells me that everyday, but I haven't really been listening. This time I know what I have done wrong. We spent the whole day today. We went to see his dad with his mom, and then we went to Kildonan Park to talk. It sure made me smile on the way home, coz I know that my man still LIKES ME.... ;) If you're reading this: "MINH LUKE TRAN, I LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE EACH DAY. " We may have disappointing moments, but I learned now to be more understanding of you. You're all worth it baby. *muah* thank you, drive thru! 
