  its 12:23am CaLi tym.. sitting here in front of the computer trying to ignore the time. i want to stay up all night, i want to stay awake for i don't want tomorrow to come.
why? because i have to go to work again!! work ain't that bad. its just that the same old stuff i do everyday makes it so hard to look forward to going everyday. counting money to deposit, balancing the log and all those things i do with so many little details. i love my work don't get me wrong, there's just not enough challenge anymore. i want to learn new things, do something else.
but being there... i feel stable, they trust me and i get along with almost everyone.... i even want to move to a different city or state just to have a fresh start. you see, my life here in carson revolves in 5 things, home, kids, work, church and then me. living here in carson with the father of my children living a couple of blocks away? its hard! its not that i dont want the kids to see him..its my kids always expecting or wanting their dad to be there when he can't!
i cannot explain but i know some will get what im saying... anyhow, my life goes on and on and on.. saturday we brought the kids to seaside lagoon and they had fun.. of course it was a manmade beach for the kids..with real salt water.. with fountains and slides .. i had fun.. although ally fell head first getting off the car so now she have a bruise on the face and scratch on the arm.. the water was cold but they didnt mind it.. worst part! the website only says $3 for parking.. little did i knoe... it was $4.50/adult and $3.75/kid. i spent $27 coz i brought friends, my sister and archie. anyways it was fun! and sunday, today.. we won!! CARSON won!! we had this play contest at church and we won!!
best play, best actor, best supporting actor and best director!! GO NOY!! lol .. we did good... although i was a little bit hesitant to join at first.. wasnt in the mood for it. but it turned out alrayt! Noy's bday is coming up(june 28).. hmm what can i give him? he's so cute today.. he's like my forever crush if you may ask.. and rhandel too today was different.. he's cute but he doesnt talk to me.. so weird!
well not really.. lol hay nako i better face the fact that i need to go to work tomorrow and finish the log for may.. or else im gonna be dead! by the 15th the bank statement should reconcile to the system total already and i haven't even touched it!! anyways.. well that's it for now.. i'll add more tom.. faves and stuff jaymel 
