  Today is the third day since i quit smoking cigaretts. every day it gets a little bit easier. like everything else... I have been reading bill's journals. i don't understand how anyone wants to stay married but in love with someone else? why do people create such a difficult situation? that is beyond my comprehension. reminds me of the song by Nelly, "dilemma".
he is a good writer. no doubt about that. it is fun to read his writings. i am so close to complete my projects around the house. when the garden looks presetable and my rooms are cleaned up, i can finally put my feet up and relish the outcome of my labor. i want to make every corner count and shine. i will celebrate it for months. 
