  And there was life. Bang!! And what now? No one has a clue what next. Every one has one believe or another but no one really knows. We do not even know if anything we do are worth it or not. Maybe everything is just a pointless exercise.
Maybe there is not goal for us. Yes, Yes it is up to you to become what ever you want to. Sometimes that is imposable. Even if you put all effort in it. Somethings work out and some do not. It is not always up to you. You do not always controle your own life. You might think you do but that does just not work like that. 
