  man im so tence!  i dont get why i am,  my feet have been feeling like they will pop at any moment,  my shoulders feel like their gunna crush me and my neck feels like snapping!  I dont get it.  im so worried for my friend sadie,
 she called me for support yesterday but i was gone,  wonderful,  she never calls me for support but the one time she does and im not here.  this suc so badly.  i wish i could blame all my tencion and physical pain on this but its been like this all day,  im going to die so early.
 i hate this!  i need something to calm me down,  i have never found anything that could,  never!  it sucks more than i can say and i wish my body would just drop and let all of the muscles in me just drop loose leave me alone you damned tension!  i dont know how long i can take it.
 i need something.  i dont know what ill do if the one thing that can relax me is something i cant reach.  something i wont let myself have.  i think it might be lust.  if it is then im better off dead.  life sux for me,
 i wish i could just live forever,  if i could then id know that id not have to worry about today becouse if i couldnt die,  then i know good times will always be back.  unfortunatly tomorrow is promised for no one,  and the only promise i have for tomorrow id that more stress will come,  more pain will be dealt with,
 and more abuse will be dealt,  i wish i could be tough.  im just a wimp,  even by bansy standards.  i damn myself.  i want to cry now.
 the muscles behind my ear hurts now.  i dont know what to do.  God please,  i need you more than ever,  please help me.
