  Another lonely day goes by.  * sigh*  this is the first time I've been completely single in a looooooooooooooooooong time.  no boyfriend,  no buddies,
 no like,  really close guy friends-  just me.  It kinda sucks 'cause I'm used to the companionship with a member of the opposite sex.  I guess I'm one of those rare people that knows how to separate friendship from love,  but if you try to mix the two,
 it wont even work.  I wrote a poem about the way I was feeling and everybody seemed to like it so here it goes :  April 27. 2004 Foolish Heart I can’ t pretend this is the first time &  you know damn well it’
s not,  I learn to depend only on me ‘ cause myself is all I’ ve got Don’ t act like you don’ t know What this is all about I’
ve become so used to this pain I don’ t know how I live without This pain feels like the knife You slid into my back &  every night of sleep I’ ve lost Trying not to react My chest goes numb every time I force myself not to cry &  that only happens every night When I’ m alone &
 can’ t help but wonder why I can’ t pretend it’ s okay anymore To be so sad I can’ t move on Tomorrow when I open my eyes I’ ll wish that you were gone But you’
ll always be around to twist That knife into this heart of mine U that’ s how I know you have no soul;  No feeling,  no heart,  no spine You’ ve never felt pain so deep It clouds your mind so you can’
t see Or you’ d never feel good about this pain That you daily inflict on me.  That about describes my pain right now.  I'm not all about man bashing all the time.  I can be your best friend or your worst enemy-  you take your pick.
