  Firstly, thank you to everyone for your comments. They really do mean a great deal to me, especially on the posts that reveal so much about me. I invested a lot of my heart in that post and now I want to explain the reason and the meaning behind it.
When I was younger, I had an eating disorder. I was anorexic. What I wrote was intended as a means to relate to people the complexities involved inside the head of somebody suffering that kind of illness. It was inspired quite a long time ago. I was in the early stages of coming out of the prison, and listening to the sound of wings beating.
I was out with a man that meant a lot to me, we were in a pub having a drink discussing life. Somehow the conversation got around to eating dissorders. He told me... "I don't have any sympathy for people like that! " I asked why he felt that way, and he responded "Well, it's just vanity isn't it. " He didn't know about my problem or how much it hurt. At the time I simply said that 'it was about feeling so unbearably sad that you don't know what else to do'.
He disagreed but dropped the subject. A comment like that can do untold damage and I thought 'I wish I could make you see, and make you feel how much it hurts'. And so that is what that post was for and I think, from my own personal experience that I've done it justice. It would be interesting if other sufferers could offer an opinion of it because I'm sure that everyones experience is different. As for the, two sides of the coin, the coin is symolic of my mind at the time. It was one coin but split down the middle and you're hearing both sides.
I could have just as easily been Yin and Yang, but I decided to go with the coin. Again, I thank you all for reading it and leaving me comments. It was so touching that you cared enough. 
