  man it has been a while since i wrote anything..... but alot has happened since i did. Well for one i got fired from the ambulance job that i loved so much for some utter bullshit, and i do mean some utter bullshit. Let me tell ya dispatchers are assholes and will do anything to coverup for their own asses(you know who i am talkin about).
I also found out the true colors of alot of people i thought were at least my friend but like everything else in my life it goes to show that i am truely alone no matter how u look at it. Lets see what else happened, well i have been trying to find another EMS job but to no avail, (Bad time of year i guess). Also this goes to a special SOMEBODY u will know who you are in a minute, before you decide to listen to random shooting off at the mouths of other people that are only concerned with their own jaded motivations, at least give me the common decency to at least listen to me for my side, ThanxJK thats for you. As you can see how this is goin I am a LITTLE PISSED OFF. The next wonderful thing that happened was on my BDay to my understanding i thought that if you were not gonna do something that you even promise you will do wouldn't you at least call someone to let them know you are not coming.... at least i thought that woould be a courteous thing to do but i guess i dont deserve that either.
See note to self *i am never again going to waste my time, energy, or ever go out opf my way to even consider doing something nice to anyone again* because all i keep doing is getting hurt. but i guess on a lighter side some poeple the people that care about me were there, thanx mom, my nephew andrew, angel, joe, dominic, BIG BRUCE, amy, jay, stacie, LINDA, and VAL and especiall ROCKY for if it was not for him my BDay would not have been a good one,... it meant the world to me that you were there it at least made my day a little memorable.
Ohhh and to my supposed friend from NH dont even bother to show down here because i will not set aside time for you anymore because i am not good enought to visit when you promise that you would... well thats it for now bye bye 
