  i'm afraid.  afraid for me, i'm afraid for others.  i don't wanna die but i kno that i will never reach old age. there is something sad and exciting about that.  so that leaves me with little time to experience a full life. 'cause u never kno when the final bomb is gonna drop.  the only thing that i'm really afraid of is the pain. does it hurt to die?  i supposed so. and what am i to do if when the final bomb drops am i gonna have children already?
 if i do what am i going to do about them. i don't want to see my children in pain.  if i knew that the world was ending ( for sure)  years before the bomb dropped would i be selfish enough to bring them into the world knowing full well that they will never grow old and live full lives. i hope to god that i don't.  but what if i got pregnant by mistake or some fault not known to me.
would i keep that child? the thing is i don't believe in abortion so i think that i would keep those children or child and let them lead as full lives as they could before time is up.  so if it came down to me live and they die. i would give it all up for them. i would give my life for them.  i don't wanna die.
