  well, last night i was talking to ash on msn and i was feeling really depressed, as ive been for the past couple of days. i had this really strong picture in my mind that jesus was laughing at me being this way, it sounds stupid but it was a really clear image that kept flashing up in front of me and it upset me. something ash said to me was that i might think i was disgusting etc but god thought i was like this beautiful princess in a really pure white dress and he was the one who saw things clearly, not me. then i went off to my room and thought about it and the words just came into my head "i'm not laughing at you, princess. " it sounds really random but they meant more to me than anything...i drew this picture of jesus hugging a princess (me), which is probably appallingly over sentimental and stupid, but it really means a lot to me.
it's a bit rough, i only added two colours as i thought that was all that was required. i haven't added faces because i've never really wanted to define what jesus looks like, also i was having a bit of a "crap at art" night...i like my pic though. :) urlLink Mail0022.jpg this morning i woke up with the 24 hour bug thing my sister had yesterday, so i'm not at that fine establishment of learning, the royal school dungannon, today.
(ha! ha! ha! ) i had a chat with mum and she says it would be fine if, come next march, i still want to go to tech after fifth year. so i can actually leave the halls of RSD to become a distant memory...yay! and then i want to take a year out to do youthwork, then do a combined practical youth work and theology course at uni. i'm really excited, as i think this is what god has called me to do and i actually want to do it too, which is always a bonus... *grins* i feel much better now anyway, in short.
isn't that nice? i know i'll have to work hard to get all the crap exams done that are coming up, but bring it on as far as i'm concerned. because i'm really looking forward to what's waiting for me beyond the splurge of academia. (wow - coolest phrase ever! the "splurge of academia"...) yeah. yayness! :-D 
