  Weekend was too hot on sat but nice on sun. we could open up the windows. Panic/ anxiety attack on sun that scared me as I couldn't stop crying.
started over a mixture of watching the movie SIGNS,  no one available in person or by phone to talk to and couldnt feel the touch of JB on my back ( I usually can feel the slightest ghost of a touch on my back when I close my eyes and it has such a warm calming effect. makes me smile big. so overall felt very alone so crazy lady was able to manifest too well. but was able to pull myself out of it over a period of time by using the breathing technique that JB taught me. It was a true test to see if I had paid attention. Since then I have felt better. more calm. I just don't like the feeling of being so out of control. I think that I am able to control crazy lady better this month. I will and must keep practicing so that I can minimize these happenings. just being a girl is hard sometimes.
then of course auntie will be here shortly. just want her to get here so she can go. not in the mood for her. but that could be the pre auntie talking. chuckle. too funny.  I have been doing about 6 hours of research today on game conventions,  places and groups to sponsor one of JB's seminars ( of which I have some good leads) and some sites and material to help with the PHP/ MySQL stuff. Its been real quiet so far today ( know on wood. oops got a website to update.
can't forget that one. Birthdays coming up. i think I am going to handpaint a card for Loretta for her birthday this year. Not sure what to do for the other july birthday but must keep it on the down low. ok got work to do. then later on I can watch part 2 of Salems lot on tbs. it was quite good for part one. more later. xoxoxo 
