  Ohhh!! It seems i always have need to write when i am down. And i am so down today!! I've seen new mothers yesterday at one party.
And new born babies.. And i saw how mothers behave.. And it brought me to conclusion that God is not our mother.. It's been three years since i am prisoner of one relationship from which i cant get out. I feel it most of the time as a punishment for something really bad i did in some past life or something..
I mean this person is drinking my blood as a vampire!! And i dont know how to get out! I should be studying now because i have billions of exams to give.. but i am just too down to move.. no light or air in my mind...
I need a miracle to set myself free... and i need to be free from all this if i want to survive... Just few hours with this person, and world stops being beautiful.. tears are in my eyes.. and desperation in my soul... i feel like in prison... And... I need to do something fast... But this person is just stuck on me... This man! Doesnt want to go out of my life.. Acting with me as i belong to him.. God, even if you are not my mother, i need you desperately to set me free!!!!
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