  Wearing: White vest top, school trousers, odd socks, black net glove. Listening to: Leader of men-Nickelback Feeling: A lot of things.. Cuts today: just one. -+- I trod on one of the kitten's feet today, and he ran of screeching...so mum and dad had a go at me, and I was in floods of tears..something like 'fuck your feelings, think of someone else for a change! '..then my breakfast made a re-appearance.. We had 3 CAT tests today..and if that wasn't enough, one of the questions had a 'kitten' answer, it was all I could do to keep from burstng into tears in the hall.. And I spent my history lesson using a safety pin, trying to cut into my wrist.
They're sharp, so it takes alot of pressure to draw blood. So now my wrist is sore and red and painful looking..then when I got annoyed at my lack of will power, I started crying. I cried and cried all lesson, and then after class ran off to sit under 'my' tree. Will came and found me, tried to talk to me, even though I started snapping. In the end I showed him what I'd been doing...and my day got better since. He held me for a while, still talking to me, and trying to pursuade me to go see our head of year and talk to her.
So I did. After school, I went to have a quick chat with her, about most things..it wasn't very long because she had a meeting, so I've got to go back tomorrow morning. My stomach feels all funny..I'm scared what she's going to ask me..but I'm going to see if there's anyway I can see the counciler without mum finding out..(her office is right near reception where mum works --+). But cat seems okay now..he's not hurt, and being adorable, play fighting with his brother. Still can't tell them apart, grr.. So, that's it. That was one of my better days. Oh I'm pathetic... 
