  Weirdo. Yes. Totally weird lookin at chicks asses and just being way too quiet. I dunno. I was so busy today. I got really far behind on things I shouldnt have gotten behind on.
I think mostly cos I kept talking to people. Haha. Too much chit- chattin goin on. Ugh so now I have to go to work extra early so I can make up for the crappy job I did today. Its ok tho.
I suck. On a Saturday night Im sitting here. doin nothin. Pretty much talkin to myself. Listening to my brother talk to himself. Sad.
Yup. Im not sad tho just the though it saddenning is that a word? I dunno. Hmmmm. what to do? Nothing I should probably go to sleep but Im not too tired.
Kinda wishing I could go ahead and go to work and get all that stuff done and then come home and go to sleep. eh probably not. I need some money. Not really I just got paid. I dont really need to spend money on everything cos I got most of the stuff I need. So.
I guess I dont need money. Um yeah just forget I ever mentioned it. I wish I had something I could paint. Not like a picture but a wall or something like that maybe a chair. Painting stuff rox. I wish I could pain my room blood red.
But. I cant. so. I guess I wont be doing that. My nose is all stuffy. I wish all this snot would just come out and leave me alone!
Damn stuffy noses and sinus problems. Math totally rules I might screw up on it a lot but its just so fun to sit and add and divide and all that stuff. I like writing it out. I hate using a calculator unless Im in a pretty big hurry. I guess Im a nerd. I dunno.
its not like I took some Honors Algebra Trig. classes or anything or ever will. I just think its fun. Aw Im so bored. Someone should come pick me up and take me far away. Yes I do have a car.
but I dont wanna drive. I dont think I know anyone who would come pick me up even if it wasnt 1: 15 am. So. I guess Ill just be stayin home then. Fiji water rules man.
I dunno what it is about it but its just so awesome. Im trying to think think think. and I know. Nothing. Sometimes I feel Ive go to. RUN AWAY.
Ive got to. GET AWAY. from the pain you driiive into the heeaarrrt of meee. the love we share seems to go nowhere and Ive lost my light for I toss and turn I cant sleep at night.  Huh? Sometimes I just wanna sing.
So I did. And now its over. I dont get it. I just dont get it and I never will. I have some weird effect on people. They just totally like to ditch me.
I just have some sort of appeal that makes people just wanna treat me like shit. Im forever getting ditched. All by my fucking self for no goddamn reason. if there is a reason Im sooooooooooo missing out on what it is. Id kinda like to know so that whatever the reason is,  I could try to make it better.
Ha. like anyone would actually tell me. Meanasses.
