  sometimes you just dont know what to do with yourself. i'm dead center in the middle of a big heaping of that sort of thing. my family has never been something that drew me away from my selfish life (considering i've never really been close to any of them), but sometimes things happen that make you feel like you've wasted time. sickness can make you really start to look at things differently. and considering that i'm about 1500 miles from my parents, i feel an absurd amount of guilt that i'm not breaking my crazy neck to be there.
new york has been good to me. maybe i need to leave for a week or two. god only knows what i'm really thinking. and i don't really believe in god, so i'm fucked. why are futurama, aqua teen hunger force, and family guy so damned good? fahrenheit 9/11. i'm so excited to see what the country's reaction is to this film. i seriously was expecting the most overblown one sided pseudo-doc that i'd ever seen.
i ended up seeing something that showed incredible restraint and intelligence. sure, its a cheerleading of the left side, but atleast it gives enough evidence to support the claims that are made. thankfully. what a miserable monster we have leading us into the future. completely fucked. and now we're going to hand iraq over and watch it burn. from our own hands. we should be smacked. 
