  I am so tired right now.  but its almost worth it.  So this morning i got up at 5: 30 and my brother and I went biking and we got to see the sunrise over lake calhoun and it was so beautiful,
 and i've seen many sunsets and a few sunrises and they never cease to amaze me.  And it was kind of nice biking and knowing that you're getting up with the day and it was quiet and peacful every where we went and it was a nice solitude.  but today has been a good day.  i got to pick up my pottery that i painted and it was so exciting,
 its like getting a gift and it comes in this cute bag and its wrapped in tissue paper so you have to unwrap it and you don't know how it turns out and the anticipation is so.  idk how to describe it but i felt like a little kid agian it was fun.  And i know i worked hard on it so it was also rewarding.  so yeah.  i have to work today and each time i go to work it ends up being more fun than i thought it would be which is surprising,
 ya know usually work is work " ugh"  and you dread going but i look forward to working and the people there are so funny and it ends up being a good time and to go along with im making money its kind of a win- win situation,  but of course it has its not so good times too.  so i'm hoping badly that it will be slow tonight.
 So i got my haircut today and it was funny 'cause i saw a whole differnt kind of world,  all the ladies there were talking about this trip that one of them went on and they were looking at pictures and it was funny 'cause it was kind of like a movie where all they care about is looks and fashion and blah blah blah and it was intersting to listen to their conversations and my lady talked about shopping for like half the time and about credit cards and these braclets that she had and how she doesn't like rides and it was the first time a haircut was entertaing.  I am alawys afraid to get haircuts 'cause you don't know what you're going to get even when you tell them what to do,
 cause they can never do EXACLTY what you want.  and if you dont' like it you don't want to hurt their feelings either.  its wierd.  But what i realized lately is that i like change,  like if nothing ever changed,  i would have to like shoot myself, or something,  like thats why my life is so boring,  cause i'm always doing the same thing like i wouldn't care if i had to move or go to a new school or jsut do something totally crazy and differnt from what i've been doing for like the last 15 years .
 so basically my whole life.  And if people didn't change,  life would be even more boring than it really is,  and if you're friends with someone and you think its going great but then they change,  and you don't like them anymore,
 then its probalby a good thing,  cause people change,  but there is always still a part of their old self there too and if you can't see that,  then you can probably asume it wasn't gonna work out anyways and if they change in a good way,  you jsut get to know and understand that person a lot better and you become closer 'cause you went through it together and now you know their past.  but this is too hard to explain.
