  i hate when you think that you're really good at something and you worked a lot on it so that it would be good but then later you find out that you had it all wrong and not only do you need to fix it ,  you're now up to competition agianst someone else to see who can do better.  thats how i feel right now,  kinda sucks.  but thats ok cause its not a big deal.  i love days like today.
 it wasn't too hot and it wasnt' cold and it was so nice outside.  Yeah ok so i saw the notebook today.  and like everyone knows and has said. i'll say it agian.  .  its soo good and you haven't seen it you need to see it!
 I don't know how i feel about it though.  cause it makes me happy but it also makes me really sad and usually when you see a " romance"  movie you leave feeling like you wishing you had a boyfriend like that or something but then i was like wait,  im scared to love anyone that much cause what i find out later that they don't love me back or they move on or like lets say we do grow older together what i have to lose them. idk whatever comes it way ,
 comes,  so i wont' waste my time and worry about it now.  oh ok so today i felt so bad cause i have to play this song for this person on the piano and its the song that they played at her brothers funeral and oh when she told me that it made me feel so bad for her well not bad,  but like idk it was a wierd feeling.  i think it was just a lot of sympathy.  but anyways today was the first time i didn't have to work in like almost a week and it was so.
refreshing"  Idk but it was nice not have to worry about it and i went biking and that was nice too.  Sometimes i wish you could just stay in a day and not have to go on because today was so perfect.  ok wait,  maybe not cause that would get boring .  kinda quickly but maybe just make the day a litte longer cause it seems like there is never enough time for anything.
 I always find myself in the situation where " if i only had more time i could finish this or get this done or blah blah blah"  time is a wierd thing.  ew i don't thinking about .  like eternity,  when people go to heaven.
 and they live for eternity .  ok dang,  maybe this is just me (  except for someone else.  you know who you are)  but that is an awfully loooong time!
 You just .  like sit up there all day or what?  idk and like yeah.  anyways time.  psh.  this is taking up too much time,
 im done.
