  . I woke up thinking about S. nbsp;  Then I thought 'Fuck it! ' and dragged myself outta bed. nbsp;  To hell with that guy and that hussy whore of an ex- stewardess . nbsp;  She ain't half of what I am. nbsp;
 So maybe she deserves that sorry- assed cheating motherfucker.  &
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TR sorta hinted that he wanted me to go steady with him,  again!
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 oK,  I'm not against giving him a chance,  but he could at least like date me for a bit first !  &
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I was cracking my head thinking of what I wanted from my life.
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 This is like one of those times in my life when I feel like nothing's going the way I want it.
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 Not with my job,  not with my love- life,  not with anything.
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 The only consolation is that I've got my family and friends that really care.
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I was really wishing that Z,  the ultimate love of my life,  would just hurry up and marry me quickly.
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 I so want a baby.
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 With good genetics and stuff,  of course.
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