  Another boring day. My sister couldn't be picked up, and I can't go outside. I hate you, Mother. She gave me life, and is currently taking it away. I don't plan on withering away in this cheap neighborhood, irrevocably placed in front of a computer or tv screen. I'm going to live life the way I want, and how.
I don't want to be like my other friends. It's so miserable lying in this damn chair, staring at an ancient CRT monitor. This is just depressing. My mom is the communist everyone one of my cruel friends makes her out to be. Every aspect of may life, love, appearance, friendships, interests, entertainment, living, she controls it all. I can't go outside, I can't get money to get decent food.
I'm stuck dining on instant noodles, leftovers, and condiments. I no longer receive clothing, and those that I want, I must purchase myself. I can't talk on the phone too long, instead I sit here by myself. I want to cry tears of blood and slowly bleed myself to death. I want to kill someone, and have that person take my life as well. I want to end my suffering, without a goodbye.
Perhaps my own family is driving me to insanity. Demons disguised as angels with holy golden wings, and silk robes that commandeer your life. When will I be free of these tethers take anchor me to this icy hell? Of course friendship helps and cures wounds. But when you're chained to a place like mine, social interaction must be attained illegally. Through lying, cheating fate, and luck.
I don't know how many risks I've taken to be with people, and I don't care. If I must continue my life like this, then so be it. What a sad existence. If you think your life has more anguish, you're probably right, but my worries are my own. No one can help me, because it seems like no one can or will. Maybe I'm stuck here alone, without true friends.
Those I do have, separated by distance. Current Mood: Depressed Current Music: Utada Hiraku- Sakura Drops ============================================================================================= What is a true friend? 
