  Thats all I seem to hear today. People keep talking.. try to communicate with me...but all I hear is blah blah blah....maybe I just don't want to hear what they have to say....I just don't care anymore.
"You're capable of better"......."you're not trying"........"you're attitude sucks" I DONT WANNA HEAR THAT SHIT ANYMORE You don't know me...you have no clue whats going on with me...if you did, maybe I wouldn't feel so lost all the time. Maybe I'd have better self esteem. Maybe I wouldn't break down because I'm keeping so much inside. If you stopped making assumptions for ONE MINUTE and asked...show you actually care about my opinion, you'd have a better idea of who I am.
I'm not that little girl you want me to be. Only if you knew how much I've changed...but no, you don't know. Because, you don't want to. You don't wanna come to terms with the fact that yes, I have problems with myself. Yes, I feel confused. And yes, there are times where I feel so frustrated with life, with you...so frustrated with myself and everything I do, that I want to die...just go to sleep and never wake up. I know you'd be scared of me if you knew that. And if you knew me or what i've done you'd freak out, send me away. You wouldn't try to talk about it to me..you'd just yell and tell me what to do. Thats why I don't approach you.
I don't tell you what I feel. I don't break down in front of you, even when I feel like I can't keep it in anymore. No, I keep that smile on..and I keep my mouth shut. This is just a bunch of babbling that doesn't make any sense...its pointless... 
