  I mean that figuratively. I could never physically keep up with my mind which runs in circles. After 20 minutes I would pass out from the physical exertion. Yet my mind can go in circles for hours.... Today I am doing some last minute straightening before an old friend of mine, Sheila, comes to visit. We were good friends in high school. She is now a doctor and lives in Oakland, CA, with her husband, also a doctor, and their beautiful baby girl.
Sheila is very sweet and generous. I question how much I have accomplished in life when I see all the work that they do. Don't get me wrong, I feel very useful and blessed to be a stay-at-home mom. I just tend to feel like I could offer more, more! Ah, well, a little laundry should fulfill me for today. lol I am also feeling a little panicked.
Let me explain something about myself, I tend to fret and worry over little things, things over which I have no control. This is a pattern in my life. I find my mind racing in circles trying to find a solution to that which I cannot doing anything about. Tiring? Yes, but unfortunately it is how I am wired. On to my dilemma.
Yesterday we received a 4 page letter from my husband's brother's girlfriend. (Soak that connection in for a minute) She is pregnant and about to deliver my brother-in-law's baby (August I think). Anyhow, my husband and I have never met her. About the most conversation we have had with her is when my husband has called the house and asked to speak to his brother. We decided to send a baby swing along with a box of new baby boy outfits/shoes to help them out and show our support. In return she sends this letter that goes on and on about things we have no knowledge about and in incredibly incoherent.
In the letter she mentions moving down here. Now, I like my husband's brother and would like if he lived down here, but this girl we do not know at all and from what I understand has a questionable character. Anyhow, she is acting WAY too friendly, too fast. I would not mind getting to know her, but she has kind of stepped on my toes by writing this letter to my husband, to whom she has never said more than hi to. I guess you would have to read them to understand the high school mentality expressed in the letter. I hope everything works out between my brother-in-law and her, especially since they are about to have a baby, and I would like to try to get to know her, but she has very inappropriately sent my husband this letter and I am not happy with it.
See, this is the type of thing I worry about. Useless, isn't it? Anyhow, I just received a call from my husband. He is on his way home for a late lunch/early dinner due to the rain. Good snuggle weather I think... 
