  Gonna have to stop cribbing about how things are in my life and start living. (Yeah right,! try to get a life . something that I haven’t had&nbsp;&nbsp;at all .. till now ? )&nbsp; Lisa's being nice off late, at least she ain’t being a pain in the rear.
I've never been happier (well I wasn’t exactly happy, more of a sense of relief)&nbsp;to see £69.85 credited into my account. Least i have enough to survive for&nbsp;this month.&nbsp; My dissertation’s chugging along at a snails pace. I’ve got work all week, dunno know if I’d go still trying to work out the math’s , so that I can attend only the required number of shifts and stay there and &nbsp;without getting chucked out.
urlLink http://obstacle-man.blogspot.com/ &nbsp; Dread going back home, I’d feel like a loser. I'm kind of getting used to my loneliness and if i do go back I’d have mum and dad around(&nbsp;yep I still live with my folks)&nbsp;. I still haven’t paid my rent for the month of September&nbsp;or booked tickets, I guess I’m worried that if I book tickets something will crop up. Got another call from another placement agent, asked me to get back to him once my dissertation's done.
I still haven’t kicked my gaming habit, I’m working on a P2 350 megs 192 MB RAM [ woooo hooooo .. I’m developing .NET apps on it] I cant seem to play Red Fraction (but I did manage to advance from one of the previous stages where I was stuck). I love the geo-mod technology used in the game. The game kind of, works on a 2x AGP card. My Materialistic Wish List: 1: An XBOX and a Game Cube 2: Red Fraction 1 and 2, Dues Ex 1 and 2&nbsp; and GTA3 3: N gage&nbsp; 4: A reasonably good PC so that I can play DOOM3&nbsp; 5: A Digital Camera&nbsp; 6:&nbsp;A mo-bike&nbsp; Now, I'm addicted to the pinball machine (read game) that ships along Win XP.
Wasn’t long ago when I was addicted to Space Impact II (Yep that old game that shipped with a Nokia 3510i. ) Artist : Blink 182 Song :&nbsp; Sometimes &nbsp; Sometimes it seems like all I hope for just gets thrown down on the floor and then it seems like you don't love me anymore sometimes I wish that I could run away sometimes I wish I just had something to say [I’m trying really hard not to miss her.
] WOOSh's lifes getting better. Her life and C's life usually head along a parallel path .&nbsp; I'm not gonna txt C , till she leaves me an offliner or two.I've been staying away form the internet too. Councelling, doesnt really help a lot. You just go there and speak about everything under the sun. I'm beginning to doubt my councellor. I guess I have just attended my last session yesterday. Tomorrow's gonna be a new day. 
