  hmm so i figured i'm an idiot once again for forgetting my other journal's password.  anyway um i actuaully had a pretty good day.  up until now.  i.  today.  14 years ago.  my little sister turned 14.  yeah.  i didnt remember.  i feel like an idiot.  like im the worst peson in the world.  she called me crying and was like i cant believe you didnt even call to say happy birthday to me.
 and i just.  its the worst feeling in he world and i deserve it.  um i guess i dont really wanna talk about that much right now.  so this weekend friday.  i uhh dont really wannna talk about theres just so much that happen in so little time.  it just my head kind of went blank as to what happen.  so i dont really wanna talk about that much execpt (
 i begged you not to go * haha okay so i have dashboard stuck in my hed*  i begged you.  i pleaded)  all that that day left me was kinda of scared and felt insecure but thanks to.  derek dave and tk and everyone eles that was there for me i'm glad i have good friend!  anyway saturday i went to dashboard ( totally met the lead singer of the get up kids OH YEAH haha.  i'll tell you the whole story about dashbaord concert in another post haha it'll make this one to long .  yeah i'm dumb hm anyway) that was totaly fun then went to ihop then stayed at coles (  even though i hate staying at other pooepls house * yes i know im totaly werid*  but haha i hate that at night my things arent where they are soppose to be)
 but it was i guess fun?  haha HAHA haha she ignored me the whole night and like slept.  it kind of made me mad.  just like the whole you ask me to stay the night and then sleep when ugh haha i have no idea but thats my totally biggest like aggrivation (
hm is that a word)  !  haha so yeah that basically happened the whole night and i just.  i cant stay still and she haha and tk and everyone eles that stays the night or makes me stay the night there probably think im joking around when i cant stop moving and stuff like that but i seriously cant help it im sure tk understands well because i uh haha have a little case of what you call adhd yeah haha not too to cool but its okay right?
 but anyways over all it was .  i know it makes poeople mad and but i cant help it.  and i wish they would understand sometimes it just makes me mad that they dont understand and get upset over the fact that i cant help it.  whoa haha that totaly probably doesnt make sense but it does in my head ( i've been meaning to call you.  i've been too busy haha ah ihave dc stuck in my head)  but yes so work up this morning again haha couldnt stay still but hm then came home and now i'm here.
 but my whole week was good!  if i wrote what i did on the weekdays this post would go on forever long.
 haha.
 so um i'm feeling a little dumb.  and stupid and.  everything about my sister's bday.  i dont know i better go now!  hopefully this week is great!  hope everyone has a great night!  love you!  - i love brett!  and i hope he gets better 
