  looked forward to this day, but it wasn't as gd as i expected..... went out with this 3 classmates lor, supposingly trying to bring me togther with this ger lah....or i should say, know her better.Dun think it was successful bah...well...i guess i was too tired to talk or make a fool out of myself. 1/2 way through the outing, i got mood swing again.Haiz...just so sudden, and uncontrollable.I couldn't figure out the actual reason, but i guess i could be jealous, or i was thinking abt the 4SE gang.Toking abt 4SE gang, i just ordered the jerseys!guess what?darren told me milton is not getting the jersey anymore cause he has no money.Seriously,i got pretty pissed off by his reason .Come on, it's for our friendship, not for someo strangers.What brothers forever....more like fuckers....
Thinking on the train home after i sent that ger home.....must a gurl and a guy be always be lovers and not friends?i did asked myself this some time ago, but i didn't think much into it.... topics which went thru my head today -i missed bball~ -i missed 4SE days~ -i missed NCC days~ -the one whom i actually like now -working hard for my results -love commitments -most guys are really &!&amp;$$##! !^%^, what else could they do beside flirting? -i can't stand gers who think dat they are at a higher class den other gers, and they are damn chio.
-meaning of friendship..... got to know myself better again.... i'm totally emotional....and i'm....easily jealous..and...i'm weak in maintaining relationships....but, i'm willing to sacrifice anything for friends/family for the sake of them....i can't understand why money is placed above relationships in many pple now....*sighz...the world is getting dimmer... ask myself again .....am i the only one still waiting for the grp to come back...?~!!
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