  *sigh* Josh knows now and he took it well... too well. ;_; He did also say some things that made me feel so incredibly bad. I just felt awful for ages. I know this probably sounds silly but I wish he'd...yelled at me or something, just so I could feel a bit bad and he could feel a bit better Anyway, I've got to reply to his email or I wont sleep tonight but josh...please can you reply. I really need to say some things I should've said before. 
