  well ive been home for awhile now.  and im complete stir crazy and wanting out of here.  i've tried so hard to be a happy little camper.  but im withering away.  i know its bad to say and hard to admit but i havent been eating and its not even like i do it intentionally,
 its more like its been going on for a good month now where i never want to eat,  i'm never feeling hungry and when i am,  i eat and then feel sick and need to vomit.  i think i should go see a doctor,  obviously something is wrong,  or something isnt right.  i think that i need to go and get checked out im worried about myself.  i dont want to become anorexic i cant i love food.  but im feeling so crappy and food isnt something that i want to indulge in,  it just makes me feel worse.  i know that there isnt anything wrong with my weight and thats not even the problem its just not appealing to me.
 for example right now i am so hungry and i havent ate yet today and yet anything offered to me makes me feel sick so i just sit here dealing with my stomach yelling at me for food but i just ignore it and go on because when there is food in there i feel sick.  i think me not eating contributes to the naps that i am forced to take.  i sleep a good 10- 12 hours a night and yet i take 3 hours naps during the day.
 im scared.  im not sure this is something that i should annouce to the world but i think that something needs to be done.  i dont know what the problem is or why this is happening and that is what scares me the most.  i dont want to be and skinnier than i am now its not a weight problem its a lack of things to keep myself from indulging in.
 i feel like i let myself have whatever i want and i feel like that is wrong and i just cant bring myself to eating.  AHHH im scared and im scared to tell someone this.  i just dont know what to do.  gabby 
