  ayte sad news coz raz had change from mr nice men to mr arrogant. i wanna cry! juz now durin d mass run, he was actually sittin hmmm 2 person away frm me n i try to smile at him but wat d fuck! he pretend he did not see me smile n juz throw his face away! wat was dat supposed to mean?
wen i told kat bout it, she says he did not see me smile n maybe he did see me smilin. n she was so happy todae coz durin d mass run, she accidently knocked to raz n says " sorry"  wen raz turn n look at her n says "
its okey"  wit a big smile. frm dat time onwerds she keeps tellin me how good n kind hearted raz is. actually im quite irritated wit dat coz she keeps on 24/ 7 tellin dat. i was fed up.
u see. wen fiz spoke to me or did sumtin to me which excite me, i try nt too talk it to her coz afraid dat shell b sad n now wen its my turn she keeps blaberrin bout it. how painful izzit? wen i told her bout how i felt wen she keep talkin bout raz, she said dats how she felt wen fiz talk to me.
n i was like? was dat supposed to b a arevenge or threat? she talks as if if i continue talkin to fiz, den shell bfren wit raz. n if i don talk to fiz, shell let raz go n nt bfren him.
dammit. i was so heartbreak dat time. i was smilin at him n he ignored while kat says sorry he reply wit a big smile. fuck him! n i think 10000000000000000000%  dat kat like him too.
kat like raz. it was bcoz she had learn all d lyrics of raz voicemail song, nric number, spellin of full name, mobile number n other particulars which only his admirer or crush would hav time to remember. u see d question is if she did not like him den why would she remember all dat stuff bout raz?
she keeeps singin d song on raz's voicemail. i was so fed up n fucked up. wen she saw fiz in d canteen, shell say to me dat itsbetta seeing raz face rather den fiz. n i would b wonderin. i noe kat u lik ehim bt did u hav to say it to me.
i tink shes gonna hav revenge on me, bt i dunnoe. hmm. most of d times kat is d bestest bez fren ever while sumtimes bt only a lil dat i think d way she speaks truly breaks my heart. only i hav to talk in a way as in nt to break her heart while she can say anytin without tinkkin twice to me n says dat im too sensitive whilst she was d sensitive one. dammit.
2morrow is d mass run n i think wen kat saw raz shell b hoppin mad. i mean i like like raz so it was supposed to b me who r hoppin mad bt she was d one doin dat. its shows clearly dat kat lokes likes raz too. she was talkin bout raz most of d time. shell say to me" its okey"
 in a cheeky way as in to remind me dat raz says to her those werds. i mean i hav talk to raz almost everythin in d pasts n did i say anytin? well hell no. i think im too jealousy or possessive of raz hahhahahaha well, juz havin a say in my hart dat kat likes raz n raz who knows like kat too. coz wen he see kat face he smile while wen he see my face hell throw his face to elsewhere.
fuck him! hey raz do u tink ur too cool/ i really wanna b fren wit u again bt ur juz too arrogant. fuck u! juz wanna b frens wit u. iz dat too much to asks?
juz wanna an opposite gender fren to talk to me. is dat too much? well, wen we saw fiz juz now, fiz tapped me on d shoulder to say hiye n i was confused whether to say hey to him ot juz don b bothered coz i don wanna change fren wit kat. dat mean kat bfrenin raz n me bfrenin fiz.
i don wan! in d end i juz show him a cant b bothered face. dammit. well enough bout dat stupid problems coz i don wanna care no more. FUCK U RAZ! well,
prelims are 16 days awaya n i haven been into a study mood yet n can still b playful. dammit 2morrow is my malay oral n im scared now. whether i can make it or not. nlevels are comin too n i haven crack up my brain yet. heiz. on 2 august is raz's malay oral.
p on 3 august is d presentation day of d bakin session i go through on 4 n 5 june earlier on. me, kat, nad n wan had to present d proggrramme in front of several people. it means we're presentin our school n had to prepare our speech n had to practice after skool. dammit.
so scared if i turn thing in a wrong way n make my school embarrass! lolz. ayte l8erz peeps. juz wonderin why things can turn out to b this way. why ohh why. love u raz :
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