  I know I've been such a slacker with this blog, but since I'm assured no one else is reading this, I can only blame myself. hahahahaha. Well it's been an interesting 2 weeks, I've had the headache of the life time and I know it's from looking at these computer screens for up to 14 hours a day. I kid you not, I do this at work, I do this at home, and I do this at school. Anyways, I'm tired and I made a decision. I figure after I get a house, which I need a sizable amount of a down payment, I am going to be a housewife for a bit. I know I'll get bored, so I am hoping to start a small business on the side, doing graphic animations for companies who need it or even commercial production for small businesses; money upfront from the businesses of course. It's just a matter of having the equipment and some advertising. I'm sorta half way there with my Mac G4 so we'll see. I guess part of the reason I feel this way is because of work. I'm really burnt out here at my job. We are the typical same ol sad song, under payed, under staffed and over worked. Which I don't mind with the overtime because that's just this closer to a down payment to a house.
But the promblem I have is mostly with these lazy asses. I'm doing this promotions tape for our department so our ad sales department can use it as a demo for potential clients and getting these guys who produce these shows to get me footage is literally like pulling teeth here. I've been asking the same guy, we'll call him Lazy D, for two weeks to get me this footage for his show. He's like cussing me out, so I say to him, listen, I'm going to talk to our super, (we'll call him "One Who Produces Crap") and tell him, I've been asking you for this footage for the past two weeks and I'm getting slack about it!
WTF! So, what does he do, after giving me this look like he's going to kill me. Within 10 minutes he gets me the video I need. It didn't take a long at all! So, what's the freaking problem. The guy does nothing all day, hence the nick name Lazy D! Okay, it's like this. Lazy D is the laziest mother fucker in the department, I and a few other people really work our asses off in this department just to make the shows at least look good.
He does nothing but research all day for a half hour show. And another guy, we'll call him the Bearster, he does the same thing for an early morning show that takes him like a half an hour not a whole freakin day. It's like this, I don't want to be doing this extra work either, I got a huge ass list of things on my list of things to do. I work for 2 departments, marketing and ICN6, doing 30 second promotions for them, and some of these promotions take 3 days to a week to do.
I don't want to do this either, so I don't need any slack. I don't want to be a bitch neither but if I am put in the position to do so, SO BE IT! Okay, I'm done with my little rant... No grousing from me for the rest of the day, besides it's quiting time.
Um, a quote... Let's see...... Here's one a good friend wrote on another site... ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ People imagine that letting themselves go would have disastrous results; trusting neither circumstances nor themselves, which together make up life, they are forever interfering and trying to make their own souls and the world conform with preconceived patterns. This interference is simply the attempt of the ego to dominate life. But when you see that all such attempts are fruitless and when you relax the fear-born resistance to life in yourself and around you which is called egoism, you realize the freedom of union with Brahman. In fact you have always had this freedom, for the state of union with Brahman can neither be attained nor lost; all men and all things have it, in spite of themselves.
It can only be realized, which is to say made real to you, by letting life live you for a while instead of trying to make yourself live life. You will soon reach the point where you will be unable to tell whether your thoughts and feelings are your own or whether life put them into you, for the distinction between yourself and life will have disappeared. If the truth be known, there never was any distinction, save in our imaginations. This is called union with Brahman, for "he that loseth his life shall find it. " ~Alan Watts, in an essay called That Far-off Divine Event, from the book Become What You Are ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Gotta love that Alan Watts guy. He's my hero! Namaskar, Tina-ji 
