  went to seoul garden with izyan and maz today. raiyan didnt go.  he say no money.  i bought a new swim suit also.  tired sia.  izyan is really fun.
 hehe. i enjoy gossiping abt filzah with them.  tmr going swimming with them.  cant wait.  hehe.  i cant believe i called vannan slut dog sia.
 i really didnt mean it.  but i was pissed.  i love him so much. i feel like crying.  but i act like i am ok.  but i am fucking not.
 raiyan ask if i am ok.  i will say yes.  i dun want to be a burden on any one.  i just need him.  i love him so much.  but i dunno what is wrg?
 i just need him .  arg.  feel like hugging him.  so sad.  i think he needs someone better.  i cut my hand again.
 bcus i dream he like some one.  its only a dream and i did this imagine reality.  i dunno what i wld do.  ok i gtg.  slp.  tmr swimming.
 night.  and i love him.  signing off:  princess sara.
