  or this morning i should say. i had a sex dream about ex-boyfriend chris which is pretty funny because he is the last person in the world you would think to have a sex dream about.
Especially since it hardly ever got to that point. it was actually a really good dream though. very tender and sweet. i have decided i am going to break my rules and tell d that the next time we have sex i will do anything he wants. anything. i bet you a million dollars he will respond with a "k" and that will be it. I kissed him extra hard today before he went to work and tried to pull him close but i dont think he noticed. i really really wish he would just grab me and kiss me hard and pull my clothes off. i know it is just wishful thinking though it is a nice fantasy i guess. i really like when he initiates sex, i really really like when he takes my clothes off instead of me, and i would really really love if he would touch my face while we are kissing.
i would love to just make out with him, just kiss and kiss, but he never seems interested. i tried to see if he wanted to do it standing up, with me in the front bending over so he could grab my boobs, the last time we did it but once again he was not interested. i guess its the shower and my stupid fantasies again, just like every day. 
