  i've been allowing myself to think of him. if you are trusted you know who him is. so exactly one person knows. i've always wanted to believe in love but recently its been hitting a blank wall. he was the first guy i ever wated and he hardly even noticed me.
i sound like desprate sad lonely girl. i am. wow it feels reall weird to admit that. but i wasn't about him. after i got the hint that he wasn;t interested i backed off and got over him. i was fine. until he had to walk into my class room and smile at me. stupidly i smiled back. he sat next to me. there was a boy, there was a girl. there was quick smiles and glances to the side.
there was hope and then there was heat break as a girl started to wait for him outside. once again the girl is alone. once again she is trying to understand why she couldn't tell him how she felt. so she gave up and walked away. and i'm still walking. talk about depressing ehh? well there you have it. my pathetic love story. now it just needs an ending. later all, jules 
