  Being Without You.... By: Mariel Calalo Being without you felt like being sure the sun would shine and yet feeling unsure whether warmth could be felt. Being without you felt like being free yet wanting to be isolated, incarcerated. Being without you felt like having enough air to breathe yet suffocating to death. Being without you felt like I wanted to smile yet knowing my heart drowns in tears. Being without you felt like I just won the lottery only to lose my winnings the next day.
Being without you felt like being deaf, blind and unable to express myself... completely helpless. Being without you felt like it was the most intelligent choice I've made, yet feeling stupid all at the same time. Being without you means being sleepless in Seattle, freezing in Cincinnati and paranoid about New York. Being without you taste like congee without soy sauce, coffee without my sugar and cream. Being without you is scary, sad and quiet.
I guess I never noticed what it was like to be without you. I guess I never took the time to take notice. So come back, make me feel what it's like to be truly free. Turn my nights into days, The cold into warmth. Take away my stupidity. Help me find my courage, my joy and my music. And let me not spend another day of being without you. 
