  today's been crap, havnt felt like this for a while. im hoping its pms lol thats wot im puttin it down to, i think mayb to do with joe, but at least seems to b tlkin to me now... mayb its cos i been happy n hyper for a cple of weeks n its jus impossible to go so long without breakin down n cryin lol. i hate myself sumtimes tho, i feel so weak for lettin small things upset me, im too vulnerable wen it comes to other ppl, its pathetic but i always do it.
and now im coming across as a miserable cow. im not, ive been so much better lately. its jus today. and this will pass. tho il be in germany - i dont want to be but o well. n i deserve it sumtimes, im not mean most of the time honest jus realy stupid i dnt intentionaly offend ppl very often, jus my fat ugly mouth. gona stop writin cos jus babbling randomly depressin stuff 
