  FEELING: SAD LISTENING:  TO SELENA " MISSING MY BABY"  ( becuz i miss my baby)
 hey. i kno i havent written in this stupid blog thing in a long ass time. ive been really busy. i cant really say i fixed things with my family. im just gunna wait to see what happends next. Theres not a night where i dont think about johnny.
look ima tell u what happend and how we broke up. so it was the 8th grade prom right?  and i was invited so i told johnny, and i went hes like " go babe and blah blah blah"  ok so I arrived to prom,
having a kickass time suddenly my " friend"  asks me to dance. so im like " dude its a slow dance"  hes like yea i kno lets go.
i didnt wanna say no cuz i felt bad for him since he wasnt there with anyone so im like " fine w/ e lets go"  so we went and we were dancing for like 30 seconds. then he tries to kiss me. i backed off and slapped him,
then got away from him. i knew it wasnt my fault cuz suddenly it was like. poof. i didnt see it comin. i was sad and i was thinkin how i had fucked up the rest of the dance. i felt like shit that night so when I got home,
i called my best friend iselle. i told her and shes like dude u gotta be honest with him. he lves u and blah blah blah so im like. lemme sleep on it and ill call u back tommorow. so next day we had like a whole bunch of problems me and johnny so like yea i still felt like shit so im liuke " johnny i have to be honest with u"
 and hes like " why what happend?  and im like at prom blah blah blah. and hes like oh. and im like im so sry and blah blah blah and hes like its ok and im like i didnt feel anything b cuz i slapped him him and got away from him. and thats how it ended.
so like 2 weeks later on a friday i had a sleep over. and wewere at my aunts house. i get online . bam. he says " i think we should break up"
 i was like. wut. no. and like i remembered iselle so i called her and shes like lemme get online and blah blah blah. so yea she got online talked to him and then he told her to call me. so i called and we got back together.
but then on monday . bam ( again. im sorry its over. i juss feel like shit when u told me blah blah blah. THE END.
but not the end. last week he told me he still loved me. but. bam! he didnt mean it. I just hate this whole thing.
man. ok you guys, just tell me how i fucked up! i just wanna kno, ok this is what i did" danced,
got kissed, slapped, and be honest. How is that bad?  I mean i love johnny, and the only thing i was doing was being honest with him.
would he rather have found out by someone completely diffrent from me, then from his own girlfriend?  I mean whats up with that. Maybe I shouldnt have been so honest. i dunno?  what do u think?
well g2g.  love me always,  * genesis*
