  so,  last night when sean and i talked he said that he liked how i had my own " things" that i was a very nice person but also very very driven and wouldn't let anyone walk all over me. which is true.  i am very quick to take care of myself. i have been doing it for about six years now.
i am just use to it. i guess i just never felt that i really had anyone looking out for me. my exes all cared about me but i think they just would sit back and let me take care of them and didn't put forth any effort to do things for me. of course i am not saying i expect all this stuff b/ c i have no need for stuff. i just want thoughtfulness.  you know,  like sean gave me a japanese charm for my car for safe driving. that meant so much to me.
it was so kind and it really surprised me. i am just not use to it. he really is a sweet guy but more than that. he is such a kind compassionate person and i am falling in love with him b/ c of it.  i am looking forward to seeing him this weekend and just talking to him face to face. sigh)
