  i feel competely retarded right now. i'm depress-ed and sad, well not really. like i'm happy, but i feel horribly lonely.
my friend amy came over and we had a girls night, movies and pizzas. that was a lot of fun. shawn left for his soccer tourney today. he stopped by work and brought me flowers! i was like half in tears when he left, i was like, oh my god, he brought me flowers ! he's so perfect sometimes. i have this hunger for cheese right now, preferably swiss. i'm kind of nervous about my parents leaving tomorrow.
like i'm used to them leaving for a week, but never when i didn't have someone with me most of the time. last year i spent it with brittany, but now i have no one. its odd. i keep hugging shawn's stuffed animal he left me. god i love it. at night i squeeze it really tight, because i miss him. i'm not sure why i miss him so much though. i read the book his mom let me borrow about love languages. his love language is affirmations, definitely.
mine, well i think my primary is quality time, and my secondary is physical touch. i'm not quite sure which is which yet, but i think thats how it is because i always yern to spend time with people, and then when i'm with them (or shawn) i feel the need to touch them, to show my love. that really is how i love people too, through touch. not necissarily in a sexual matter, though that happens on occasion, but i love just holding one's hand.
it makes me feel close to the person, connected. i guess that book really opened my eyes to how different people react to love, and it was an awesome learning experience. i'm really glad i read it. i feel like in a way i know shawn better to, because i know how he speaks his love. i just love the psychoanalyzation of people, too, even though thats odd. 
