  I miss everybody. I miss my life back then. I miss love. I miss.. crap. this coffee is getting to me. life has been "fantastic" lately. "the little things that make me crazy" the pressure is ripping me off my skin. I'm getting out of my mind. or am I getting older? fuck. I'm so sick and tired of doing everyone's dirty work.
do I have a symbol on my forehead saying, "scape goat"? am I such a nice person and then everyone can just take advantage of me? am I that naive person? am I getting out of my mind? I'm pissed. I'm officially pissed. I don't have to apologize to them. I don't owe anyone any explanation. I live my own life. I've fucked it enough, so quit messing it up anymore. I really don't need it. I'm so sick of being in the middle of everything and the one who gets all the blame.
I'm so sick of you, cowards! who are too immature to take your own responsibilities. I'm so sick of you, people who created problems without solving them. I really do have my own limitation. and I am human. ps. i miss my father. love you, dad. 
