  following is a journal entry written by the lead singer of the band watashi-wa [which recently broke up after 8 years of being a band]... quite an eye-opener in a sense... 6-07-04 3:42 pm i was waiting to try and recover all our old journal entry's beforei started writing new ones. but i say forget it... i always used to write in my journals when i was a kid and then years later read it andbe disgusted with how "immature" i was so i would throw the journals away. so yes we lost the old entry's...GOOD RIDDANCE we are driving right now to play a show in saint george utah.
when i was youngi dreamed of doing things like this. taking off on a random monday to play a show 2 states away from mine. dreams are funny. or maybe its me. yes in fact it is me. i recently discovered that, as foolish as it is...i have become more consumed with the dream of playing music...than the heart of that dream. i have been more consumed by the process of progress..than the purpose to progress.if you arent folowing. its like this. in a way...i thought it would be a good idea to ride my bike to the park and feed the ducks...but then got so caught up in trying to plan out which roads to take and which bread to bring...and pretty soon i was so concerned about the way to make it work that i forgot what i was going to the park to do in the first place. the fact is all ive ever wanted was for God to be glorified in my life. and inmy music. and so here we are...so backwards.. its so hard to feel what i felt when i was 15. so im slowing down.
taking some time to breathe. and it feels like a whole new dream is being birthed. or maybe our dreams are just being renewed.either way . in all my days and lessons on the way and no matter what tommorrow brings you are all i ever need. and some things change...but moststay the same and im learning...again...to not cling so closely...or close at all...because you are all i need. so take these things off my back.. and give me the wisdom i lack.. today, all i do, all i say, i give these things to you. all my dreams, the ones i love..i surrender them to you again today. whatever today brings. i wrote that when i was 15. and its teaching me today... 6 years later. 
