  Today my mood has been so weird I've shifted from happy and relaxed to kinda sad and lonely. Having no job really sucks, dude. Besides the moody stuff, there are too many things I'd love to do and at least one thing I have to do, although I'd rather play dumb about it: going to the dentist. Eek! Geez I'm scared like a five-year-old although I know too damn well it ain't gonna hurt...still, I can't seem to take the decision and call the doc. I hate having to spend money now for a goddam couple teeth, that's it. But I better do it soon anyway, before they start aching. Wisdom teeth, how ironic that I have to have them removed...Tomorrow I promise I'm going to call the dentist. I know that with all the serious issues I could be worrying about this is definitely one of the smallest, but I can't help feeling it's actually a crucial point...maybe cause I know that if I don't have the guts to do such a ridiculously stupid and necessary thing, I won't be able to sleep at night thinking how fool I've become.
Maybe because I need to feel kinda safe, and sane, and okay, starting from my teeth...God, it's scary to realize how not having a job makes you focus onto yourself in a way you had forgotten because you were too busy working all day long and enjoying your status - and your money, aww!
When one and a half year ago I had a very serious issue with one tooth I acknowledged the pain only the moment the only possible thing left to do was to be taken to the hospital in a rush, all the while begging the Lord to please just make me pass out pleeeeeeease. Hee! I'm definitely calling the dentist first thing tomorrow morning ^_^ 
